amatuer human being. chicago. ask a question
September 16th
12:03am
life is merely terrible; I feel it as few others do. Often—and in my inmost self perhaps all the time—I doubt that I am a human being.

life is merely terrible; I feel it as few others do. Often—and in my inmost self perhaps all the time—I doubt that I am a human being.

September 15th
11:48pm
at bleeding hearts club

at bleeding hearts club

September 15th
11:48pm
mood.

mood.

September 15th
11:48pm
subjectivity.

subjectivity.

I am eternally, devastatingly romantic, and I thought people would see it because ‘romantic’ doesn’t mean ‘sugary.’ It’s dark and tormented — the furor of passion, the despair of an idealism that you can’t attain.

September 8th
2:07pm
Anonymous asked: You're a massochist.

How do you take it upon yourself to call someone a masochist ? What do you base this off of ? Not to mention i don’t share details of my life with many people. If I’m a masochist, you’re just silly.

There are certain people who come into your life, and leave a mark. Their place in your heart is tender; a bruise of longing, a pulse of unfinished business. Just hearing their name pushes and pulls at you in a hundred ways, and when you try to define those hundred ways, describe them even to yourself, words are useless.

August 24th
10:13pm
August 24th
9:47pm
Anonymous asked: What's your opinion on the police? Do you think they're corrupt people?

I don’t like labeling any group of people something on the account of a percentage of people from that group doing something immoral. I don’t think every police officer is corrupt. The media has a way of exploiting certain situations and views and the masses are forever manifesting on that. There are a lot of good people that are officers. Just like there are a lot of bad priests, teachers and doctors. Don’t get me wrong, there are many corrupt officers, I’ve encountered and dealt with that living in Chicago; but not corrupt as a whole. 

nobody can save you but
yourself.
you will be put again and again
into nearly impossible
situations.
they will attempt again and again
through subterfuge, guise and
force
to make you submit, quit and/or die quietly
inside.
nobody can save you but
yourself
and it will be easy enough to fail
so very easily
but don’t, don’t, don’t.
just watch them.
listen to them.
do you want to be like that?
a faceless, mindless, heartless
being?
do you want to experience
death before death?
nobody can save you but
yourself
and you’re worth saving.
it’s a war not easily won
but if anything is worth winning then
this is it.
think about it.
think about saving your self.

Charles Bukowski